Words & thoughts & stuff.

I feel like I used to write a lot more. Not just publicly, but also personally. Journaling, random expression of life through words used to be a daily thing for me. Lately, sitting down and getting out what’s rattling around in my head seems less like therapy and more like adding to the bullshit already […]

Asking a fighter why they fight is like asking a painter why they paint or a dancer why they dance. It’s like asking you why you breathe. Fighting is like living a thousand lives, reincarnation within this one life. The person that emerges after a fight is not the same as the one that entered […]

Still Fighting

2020, what have you done. Up is down, down is up. The tension in the air is palatable. The fuses are short. It’s silly to ignore or worse, deny it. So, why not just go with it chaos. Use what you are given, treat it like fuel. Let it motivate you instead of consume you. […]

If life were to live through you,

what would you want it to experience? Stay with me on this one. Take yourself out of the equation, calm your ego and tell your doubt to relax. If life was a being, a physical manifestation, what would you want it to see, feel, touch, taste? I feel a lot of fear in the world […]

Took a pandemic to get me to write & share again

I used to write all the time. Especially after fights. Just pour whatever was in my soul out on to paper or a keyboard. And I shared some of it, not to be boastful or to try to gain followers or anything other to put it out into the world – to get thoughts and […]

Fight 17

I’ve opened emails and sipped coffee, starred at this page, doodled, walked around, and came back to stare. I can feel my heart racing as I type, physically aching, and then it subsides and I’m filled an indescribable feeling that can only be semi understood as gratitude. My hand wasn’t raised, but this fight saved […]

Life isn’t a given.

I started talking with my mom today about being a millennial and being surrounded by a generation of this gotta have it now attitude, this I deserve this, the participation award. The more I talked, the more I realized it’s not just a generational thing, it’s an age – we are in the age of […]

I am something more.

I am not the body. I am not even the mind. A mantra given during yoga class with Rachel Miller at the Body Electric Yoga Company. Simple. I am not the body. I am not even the mind. I am something more. It clicked with me. I found myself reciting it in my head […]

Chaos

I’ve been running from chaos my entire life. Now, some might disagree after seeing the state of my house at times, but in the grand scheme of things, the big life picture… I like things to be orderly, have a reason, have a time and place, I like control. I’ve never embraced the natural […]

Top 5 Ways to Stick to Your New Years Resolution

Don’t. , 3. , 4. , & 5. Just stop. It’s one week into the New Year. Did you make goals and plans and big dreams and schedules and all the things that come with that new year, new me attitude? It’s been one week. Have you stuck to them? Are you currently beating yourself […]

Jai Dee

fight & live with a good heart